It's been forever. . .

I don't really have the time to updae with thorough details, but here are the highlights since the last time I updated:

Computer crashed and has been in the shop since April. I'm at the library.

Work is hectic and stressful.

My car was totaled, but everyone in the accident is fine.

My grandmother's having surgery Tuesday, May 23rd. If you need to reach me, I'll be at the hospital in Nashville with her until Friday.

My phone is stupid. No, I'm not ignoring your calls or messages. I'm receiving voice mails days after they are sent.  Life is so busy and ever-changing, but I'm trying to keep up.

I'm moving again soon.

I'm going back to school (God-willing)

I have a new peircing (yes, it's visible so don't let your mind wander )

No, I'm not married, engaged, or any of the above. (Hey, some people have asked)

I'm still happy.

Annnnnd,

"Got a feeling 21 is gonna be a good year, especially if you and me see it in togther. . . "

Things have been going pretty well as of late. I've had four days off, which wasn't planned but I guess I'll take it.

Last Saturday, I went to Heather's wedding. Beside being beautiful, it was imperfect, but that made it even more enjoyable and memorable. Of course, when I say "imperfect", I don't mean the term in a derogatory manner, but they showed that just because the candle went out, words were messed up, and perphaps a few other small things, it wouldn't stop their wedding. It didn't have to run smoothly for Heather to laugh it off and keep going. It was the type of wedding I could hope to have because even with a few imperfections, it would still be perfect.

Yesterday, as I went into work to get my check and schedule, my manager asked me if I'm working or not. When I said no, he smiled that devious little smile and said he needed to talk to me so I'm thinking "lovely, I'm being fired on the day before my birthday." However, it was quite the oppostie and I was promoted. After a few minutes of flattery, he told me a lot of people in the store were pulling for me and wanted me to have the new position, which made me feel really good. Anyway, I'm really thankful for the promotion, though I'm a little nervous about being customer service coordinator and having all the customer problems and such come to me. Still, I think I can handle it.

So, I'm 21 today, woo hoo. In fact, I'm about to head out of here for the entire day so have a nice weekend.

You have GOT to be kidding me?!

Good Lord, what is the world coming to? 

Happy belated Valentines Day!

When I was in high school, I used to be bitter about the holiday because every relationship I had was diminished by the time february 14th rolled around. Then, I got over it and it just became a day. I didn't think yesterday would be too different. I was so wrong.

It was a nice lunch, but the best part of the day was looking up from my long line at customer service and seeing him standing there with pink roses (and he didn't even know they were my favorite). I felt my cheeks blushing, all eyes turning toward the both of us, and bouts of giggles and "awww"s filling the air. It really was a sweet surprise.

So, I gave 4 of my roses to the girls at work and they spent the rest of the night telling me that I have a good one. Yeah, this entry is more sappy than any I think I've written in a long time and it doesn't sound like me saying it, but. . .

thank you and. . .

I love you.

Help me Let Go

It's not easy to do, but I said I would so I'm trying. I guess I'm the type that needs closure, but I don't always get it. There are things I still wish I could say, but I don't think it's needed anymore. 

I feel lost and alone, even if I'm not. I know the door has been closed, but. . .

It's just that it's so hard.

And it hurts. . .

so much.

I guess I just gotta move on. I just have to learn to let go.